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Psalm 1:4 Not so the wicked; rather, they are like chaff that wind blows away. Devorah reflects on the Psalmist’s comparison of rootless chaff and wickedness. In a world where falseness, lies and cheating are pervasive, how do we distinguish between ungodly behavior and downright godlessness? Original musical compilation by Elizabeth and Devorah.  Blow Away (Psalm 1:4)
Blow Away, Blow Away Lo Chen ha-Reshaim, Blow Away Blow Away Ki Eem Kamotz, Blow Away Blow Away. Asher Tidfenu Ruach. Blow Away, Blow Away; Like Chaff that Wind Blows Away, Blow Away. Original Lyrics and Music by Rabbi Elizabeth Goldstein and Devorah Tucker-Fick. Psalm 1:4 Not so the wicked; rather, they are like chaff that wind blows away. [Sefaria] Devorah reflects on the value of hard work, unlucky chances and the parts of our lives that are ours to shape if we can. Where do you go to nourish yourself and how do you support and sustain the journeys of others?  What does it mean to meditate on something day and night? Devorah reflects on the act of “practice” and the role it has played at different pivotal moments in her life. Her journey also opens the door for us consider the investment of time and energy in activities that we choose. Developing a routine skill, and really honing it through practice, brings its own reward. Piano music by Devorah Tucker-Fick. Psalm music composition by Rabbi Elizabeth W. Goldstein. 
Devorah reflects on the character of a good leader and a good follower as described in the first verse of the first Psalm. As we near the election, let us consider our role as citizens: we are both peacemakers and activists, agents of change or lovers of tradition. These are all in each of us and may we have the wisdom to always choose the right path. Original music by Elizabeth.  On the two-year anniversary of the Pittsburg shooting, we memorialize the victims of this massacre, holding sacred the tree of life in each of us. We pray that people stop prioritizing some lives over others and that hatred in all of its forms ceases.  We have been answered: The month of Heshvan and the Transition out of High Holiday Mode Elizabeth reflects on events that have transpired since Simhat Torah and the end of the High Holy Day season. As snow falls to the ground in Spokane today, Elizabeth describes the last days of the Fall, offers gratitude for the gifts we have accumulated over the last months, and imagines, with vibrant hope, a winter that will quickly yield to Spring in which a Passover exodus coincides with a new vaccine.  Celebrate Simhat Torah with Hineni. Join us as we rejoice in the light of Torah, chanting it’s end and singing in its beginning. As we renew the season and ourselves, be with us as we renew Torah in this new, holy year. Sunday Morning October 11, 2020 9 am PST / 12 EST. Same Zoom Link as previous services or email Hineni.Space@gmail.com for the link and passcode.  The happiness of Sukkot collides with the three-year anniversary of the twin boys to whom Devorah gave birth. She gave her friends the greatest gift that one can give—surrogacy. Exploring the painful journey of infertility, and the pitfalls in confronting an unexpected outcome, we are led on one such journey through Devorah’s compassionate and self-reflective lens. Trigger warning: message deals with the pain of infertility, the highs, and lows of desiring, wanting and losing the potential for children. Music and verse from the Hallel, psalms of praise, traditionally sung over Sukkot and Simhat Torah. Join us Sunday morning tefillah for Simhat Torah with Hineni.  Devorah explores what it means to build a sukkah inside her house. She struggles at first with the decision, but eventually realizes that God provides meaning in our observances even when we cannot perform them in the ways we might want or think we ought to.  Two of Devorah’s children in a Sukkot past. Elizabeth and Devorah rejoice in finishing the High Holy Days. As they prepare for Sukkot, Elizabeth reflects on the strange intersection between the happiness of the season and the bitter and divisive tone in our country. Hope, Hope, Hope and be grateful for the gifts of the season!  Sukkah painting by Ilana Breslau The. Vidui-Ashamnu: When We Have to Wait for Teshuva Elizabeth and Devorah are back this week during the 10 Days of Teshuva between RH and YK bringing you new harmonies for the well-known “alphabet of woes.” Elizabeth debunks the age-old myth that we are in control of our own journeys toward reconciliation. In waiting for the cosmos to align, for people to choose to atone, and thus for true reconciliation to occur, we must be patient and remain steadfast-we must choose hope and find peace in our ourselves.  Ki Anu Amecha v’ata Elohaynu We are your people and you are our God Devorah explores the intersection of identity and naming in this central prayer of the Yom Kippur liturgy. Relationship is at the core of who God is for us and who we are to God. Further, how can we understand “king” and “lord” in this beautiful piyyut (liturgical poem)? Taking us back to the history of the intent of these roles, Devorah sets a challenge for herself and offers one to us. In the end, however we name the relationship, we are all in it together.  Shema Koleynu is one of the most powerful prayers on Yom Kippur. “Hear us o God and do not leave us alone. Respond to us and do not forsake us!” The High Holy Days are filled with prayers that invoke our need for God in our lives. But what about people who don’t relate to any form or concept of God? What does it mean for a Jew who doesn’t believe to stand up on Yom Kippur and say, “Hear our pleas, O God”? Elizabeth explores this question through the lens of the High Holy Day “Shema Koleynu.” In the age of doubt and true skepticism, the answer might be found in the strength of individuals who make up the diverse tapestry of a Jewish community.  The 13 attributes of God, in Hebrew called the middot, can be found in Exodus 34:6. Two biblical chapters after the Israelites commit the grave sin of building a golden calf and worshipping in its midst. The Talmud explains that God gave Moses a way to appease divine anger by reciting these attributes and since then, Jewish people have had access to a special way appeal to God to forgive our sins. We recite these holy words at auspicious times when we hope to find God ready to accept us with love. However, we are not always in the right place to be loving. Devorah explores righteous anger that may be holding us back from forgiveness and a clean slate. The 13 middot demonstrate that is not anger that we should be afraid of, but rather its excesses. As God models turning back from excessive anger, so too can we follow this example. The 13 middot show us the way. Exodus 34:6 וַיַּעֲבֹ֨ר יְהוָ֥ה ׀ עַל־פָּנָיו֮ וַיִּקְרָא֒ יְהוָ֣ה ׀ יְהוָ֔ה אֵ֥ל רַח֖וּם וְחַנּ֑וּן אֶ֥רֶךְ אַפַּ֖יִם וְרַב־חֶ֥סֶד וֶאֱמֶֽת ׀ The LORD passed before him and proclaimed: “The LORD! the LORD! a God compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in kindness and faithfulness, [Sefaria]  Hashivenu....Return to us, and we will return to you. The Selichot / the Sorries begin Saturday night. There is so much on our plates this year but we need to take the time to hit the “restart” button in our souls. Return again to the land of our Souls. Elizabeth reflects on a hard day at the intersection of Elul and the preparation for the Holy Days. We can’t control anyone’s actions but our own. Have compassion on us, our God, and help us to be better as we approach the High Holy Days.  Adult education presentation with Rabbi Elizabeth Goldstein on Psalm 27:14 https://gonzaga.zoom.us/rec/share/sk77P3eCQ6hNBPK1i4K9FKlQTHTtR4yyZNHNcv8HSuz-BmpUJnMz_SwQ0_zzEd-a.8ruCM8nRTQVWHB3l (Access Password: 6d&Wb69E)
קַוֵּ֗ה אֶל־יְה֫וָ֥ה חֲ֭זַק וְיַאֲמֵ֣ץ לִבֶּ֑ךָ וְ֝קַוֵּ֗ה אֶל־יְהוָֽה׃ Look to the LORD; be strong and of good courage! O look to the LORD! Psalm 27:14 [Sefaria] Devorah tells the story of her first husband’s tragic death and remembers the feelings of being alone with two young children. When is the right time to move forward and when is it right to stand still? Only God can tell us. We thank Rabbi Hanna Tiferet Siegel again for the use of her beautiful rendition of Kaveh El Yah. We so enjoyed having it as our background niggun these two and half weeks and today we have added the lyrics and done a cover of her original music. For information on her full album, please scroll down to Day 1 of our Psalm 27 offerings.  This week’s portion Netzavin warns against treating people differently from each other, giving some people privileges and depriving others of those same privilges.
A family who sends a moving van and flies over Canada to Alaska looks like they come from an established, wealthy, privileged community. A family who chooses to drive from Spokane to Alaska over the course of a week with a truck and an RV is perceived differently and often treated differently. Netzavim tells us that tribal leaders and wood choppers are the same. In our most recent Elul audio I talked about our friends who are native Alaskans. The woman works for a network of native tribes and the man can do everything under the sun including home schooling their kids during a travel year. They have lived here in Spokane since our youngest son, Yair, was 5. Oscar, one of their children, is Yair’s best friend so when they needed a home base for this past year, we invited them to park their RV on our land and come and go as they pleased. It was a win/win for an extrovert like me to have fun, cool, and generous neighbors so close by and it was a huge win for Yair who had his best friend living just at the edge of the property. The fall of 2019 was fun-filled as we went on with our lives and they with theirs—sometimes coming together for family dinners ----- the kids learned what it was like to experience a kibbutz like atmosphere. They traveled south for the winter of 2019-2020 to warmer weather to be with relatives and arrived back for what was supposed to be a month or two last March. But Covid was here and no one was going anywhere—we quarantined together and survived the emotional rollercoaster of the shutdown. It’s now September and thanks, in part, to the Unites State’s declining relationship with Canada, the simple trip from Spokane to Alaska has been itself shut down. They are back for the second time in a month, now forced to sell almost everything, figuring out how they can fit what is left into a horse trailer which will be loaded onto a barge across Washington state off the coast of Seattle. I hear the dad whistling while I am writing this. He was just accused of nefarious schemes at the Canadian border and turned away—his wife and kids in tears and now, with a new plan, he is whistling. He is unloading the rented U-haul for the second time. I have difficulty understanding how people find a way to persevere through such circumstances. I have difficulty understanding how they don’t pick up the phone, and try to find someone who knows an insider who can just tell the Canadians they are fine, upstanding, good people. The injustice of it makes me and all of their friends feel crazy inside. Netzavim says: You stand this day, all of you, before the LORD your God—your tribal heads, your elders and your officials, all the men of Israel, טַפְּכֶ֣ם נְשֵׁיכֶ֔ם וְגֵ֣רְךָ֔ אֲשֶׁ֖ר בְּקֶ֣רֶב מַחֲנֶ֑יךָ מֵחֹטֵ֣ב עֵצֶ֔יךָ עַ֖ד שֹׁאֵ֥ב מֵימֶֽיךָ׃ your children, your wives, even the stranger within your camp, from woodchopper to water drawer-- לְעָבְרְךָ֗ בִּבְרִ֛ית יְהוָ֥ה אֱלֹהֶ֖יךָ וּבְאָלָת֑וֹ אֲשֶׁר֙ יְהוָ֣ה אֱלֹהֶ֔יךָ כֹּרֵ֥ת עִמְּךָ֖ הַיּֽוֹם׃ to enter into the covenant of the LORD your God, which the Adonai your God is concluding with you this day, with its sanctions; לְמַ֣עַן הָקִֽים־אֹתְךָ֩ הַיּ֨וֹם ׀ ל֜וֹ לְעָ֗ם וְה֤וּא יִֽהְיֶה־לְּךָ֙ לֵֽאלֹהִ֔ים כַּאֲשֶׁ֖ר דִּבֶּר־לָ֑ךְ וְכַאֲשֶׁ֤ר נִשְׁבַּע֙ לַאֲבֹתֶ֔יךָ לְאַבְרָהָ֥ם לְיִצְחָ֖ק וּֽלְיַעֲקֹֽב׃ to the end that God may establish you this day as God’s people and be your Eternal One, as was promised to you and as was sworn to your fathers, Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. וְלֹ֥א אִתְּכֶ֖ם לְבַדְּכֶ֑ם אָנֹכִ֗י כֹּרֵת֙ אֶת־הַבְּרִ֣ית הַזֹּ֔את וְאֶת־הָאָלָ֖ה הַזֹּֽאת׃ I make this covenant, with its sanctions, not with you alone, כִּי֩ אֶת־אֲשֶׁ֨ר יֶשְׁנ֜וֹ פֹּ֗ה עִמָּ֙נוּ֙ עֹמֵ֣ד הַיּ֔וֹם לִפְנֵ֖י יְהוָ֣ה אֱלֹהֵ֑ינוּ וְאֵ֨ת אֲשֶׁ֥ר אֵינֶ֛נּוּ פֹּ֖ה עִמָּ֥נוּ הַיּֽוֹם׃ but both with those who are standing here with us this day before the ADONAI our God and with those who are not with us here this day. The Torah knew that as human beings, we would privilege the elders and officials over the water drawers and the woodchoppers and we are warned against doing that. Everyone who accepts the covenant is welcome into the community of Adonai. The Israelite people are poised to enter the promised land. Moses continues to recite before them a list of warnings –commonly known as blessings and curses----all good things to keep in mind as they set up their community—the curses are scary and they sound ominous, but the Torah says: הַעִידֹ֨תִי בָכֶ֣ם הַיּוֹם֮ אֶת־הַשָּׁמַ֣יִם וְאֶת־הָאָרֶץ֒ הַחַיִּ֤ים וְהַמָּ֙וֶת֙ נָתַ֣תִּי לְפָנֶ֔יךָ הַבְּרָכָ֖ה וְהַקְּלָלָ֑ה וּבָֽחַרְתָּ֙ בַּֽחַיִּ֔ים לְמַ֥עַן תִּחְיֶ֖ה אַתָּ֥ה וְזַרְעֶֽךָ׃ I call heaven and earth to witness against you this day: I have put before you life and death, blessing and curse. Choose life—that you and your offspring would live-- The rabbis teach that U’vacharta B’chayyim, choose life, should be interpreted that we should live by the Torah and not die by it. So, if you need to break the sabbath to get to the hospital, you should surely do this. This longheld interpretation focuses on life vs. death but this morning I want to focus on the choice aspect of the phrase—U’vachrta B’hayyim. Our Alaskan neighbors are choosing to sell their things, they are choosing to not wait another year, even though they know they can stay here as long as they want, that we love having them and the community we have built. But the stuff was less important to them. Living for them is to return to their land—to choose life is to choose to get to Alaska sooner, to begin building their life anew. We are all thinking about how to choose life in the days of the pandemic, in the days of online school, in the days of online teaching, in the days of recurring Covid symptoms, and families far far apart---even as I am preparing for the HHD I am wondering how I can choose the most life sustaining avenue to celebrate them. The second to the last verse of Ps 27, vs. 13 says: לׅׄוּלֵׅׄ֗אׅׄ הֶ֭אֱמַנְתִּי לִרְא֥וֹת בְּֽטוּב־יְהוָ֗ה בְּאֶ֣רֶץ חַיִּֽים׃ Had I not the assurance that I would enjoy the goodness of God in the land of the living… Where is your eretz hayyim? Your land of the living? U’vacharta Hayyim—"Choose life” How will you choose the precious life you find in the land of the living? I think that the way we personally answer these questions will lead us to our own solutions for many of the tough choices we are presented with today. Listening to what makes us feel alive in the land of the living is to make the choice to choose life. Amen Rabbi Elizabeth W. Goldstein לׅׄוּלֵׅׄ֗אׅׄ הֶ֭אֱמַנְתִּי לִרְא֥וֹת בְּֽטוּב־יְהוָ֗ה בְּאֶ֣רֶץ חַיִּֽים׃ Had I not the assurance that I would enjoy the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living… Psalm 27:13 [Sefaria] Elizabeth ponders what it means to see God’s goodness in the land of the living—The most powerful of holy day prayers—U’netaneh Tokef asks us to face the reality that some of us won’t make it to the next Rosh Hashana. It is a terrifying prayer and also somewhat cathartic. Isn’t better to just have it out there that we might not make it? That we don’t have unlimited time on this earth and that putting things off might leave some seriously unfinished cosmic business.  |
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